Bernice Rosemarin - Literacy Unlimited

What I would like to be and what I can do are two different things. The past few years have taught me to accept myself for who I am. Failing at the simplest task was a discouragement in itself. I was 57 years old when I finally took the initiative to look for help.

Finding a place for help was a challenge in itself. I noticed an advertisement in the newspaper for adults that had difficulty in the workplace because of learning difficulties. From this advertisement and many phoned calls I found Literacy Unlimited. I was introduced to two wonderful women at Literacy Unlimited. We discussed what my needs were, and what they could do to help me. Most important was finding me a tutor. In the past I had no luck with school, or sympathetic teachers.

When I started I was not sure what I needed, or wanted from Literacy Unlimited. As the weeks became months I knew Literacy Unlimited found me a "Perfect Match". The tutor, Shirley Anderson was patient, understanding, knowledgeable and most of all was extremely creative in her approach with me. Keeping myself focused was a challenge and I suspect it was a challenge for my tutor also. Patience is not one of my virtues.

My tutor has given me the self-confidence I did not have. I know now that when I do something it is to the best of my ability. Now I am able to understand simple written instructions. I love to cook and bake but because of not being able to read the recipe correctly I would mess up. The measurements were not calculated correctly (a simple feat for most) but with a little help, the cake that used to look like a pizza finally looked good enough to display at any table. Now I can understand the recipes, read articles, and read the instructions that come with any medication without asking for help or worse making a mistake.

I was told throughout most of my younger life that I was retarded. This label has followed me ever since. Thanks to this organization and my tutor I know that I am not retarded and can learn. It always will be frustrating, but I will persevere. I learned to believe in myself, and if I fall get up and walk, running is something I still have to learn how to do.

I had many disappointments in my life, especially when it came to motivating myself or recognizing what I could do. My principal in High School said the thing best to do is leave school and become a scullery maid. If only he could see me now. I am much more confident, motivated and can recognize what I can and cannot do. I may not write the next great Canadian novel, but I am able to read and understand it.